Reflection: I’ve always wanted to be a Hero

 is ... I have no clue honestly. Is it a poem? A speech? That's why I just called it a Reflection. Anyway, the following is about a character's history from their point of view. It's something else, something different then what I usually do lol. I don't know why I wrote this, I kinda just did. It is also a sequel (in a sense) to this previous reflection. Written by Sci100.

I’ve always wanted to be a Hero

Since I was young, I loved watching cartoons

Reading Sumo Slammers and pretending I could be one

I was a boy with a dream in a town that was dreamless

And I was without hope

Stuck in a school where I was at the bottom

A place I didn’t belong to

A place without heroes

I’ve always wanted to be a Hero

I found something one night

It changed my life forever

It changed me, literally

I could do things unlike anyone had seen

I could use fire and water

I could spin and grow

I could become anything I wanted

Be the hero I had dreamed of

It was a gift I thought

To be the hero

But then he lied to me

He kept a secret from me

Even a family can have secrets

I had one of my own

I’ve always wanted to be a hero

But I didn’t realize how hard it was

The pain I would feel

The tears I should shed

The danger of losing those I care for

At ten I was scared

As the innocence faded away

I found out being a hero was dangerous

I almost lost my cousin

I almost lost my grandfather

I almost lost myself.

Being a hero really is dangerous

Because one day

A virus will come up to you

And will kill that one part of you that remained a child

Hope gone, the thrill of being a hero disappearing

Until you put it up and normalcy resumes

I’ve always wanted to be a hero

I guess I couldn’t keep away

But the stakes were higher

It was as if the world had gotten darker

The mood had shifted into that of a PG-13 film

As if it was always night and never day

As it was when he disappeared in a flash of light

Gone forever I thought

The loss striking the heart

My youthful joy and hope dying with him once more

Worse yet, I didn’t understand life anymore

A monster now ally

An annoying family member now one of my best friends

A world without a strange squid-cooking grandfather

And then she came into my life

And for a while, I thought she was the one

She helped me when I faced one of my greatest threats

They all helped me

But war changes people

It changed me too

I’ve always wanted to be a hero

Now I was

My old enemy came back

A rivalry burning with tension

The fires scorching the earth in battle.

I made my friend a monster.

I caused her to make mistakes.

I stopped the squid

But at a great cost

I wondered if I could still be a hero

Without the item that made me a hero

I’ve always wanted to be a hero

My goal was to become the ultimate hero

But I turned to be the ultimate pain in the ass.

It was my fault that I made him a monster.

Gave him the curse.

I knew I had to stop him

But even as I thought about how to do it

I knew I didn’t want to hurt my best friend

I didn’t want to kill anyone

Fear went through me

As I questioned if putting him down would ruin my soul

Break the soul and harm my chances of a good afterlife

I didn’t have to, but I was truly terrified

Almost as terrified as when I met a demon

Not the red monster to rip everything apart

Or the giant kraken shooting red fire at me

But myself

Two minutes I had power

Two minutes I could be a god

But I feared that by becoming a god, I would turn as a monster

A fallen angel descending from the heavens

Devilish desire to make the world in my vision

Would I turn into the villain that my arch-nemesis wanted me to become?

Or would I be the hero I always wanted to be?

I’ve always wanted to be a hero

I did remake the world, only because it was being torn apart at the same time

I stayed a hero, but I lost the girl who had been there for me for two years

Color and vibrancy returned, a new era beginning with the arrival of a new friend

A friend that had no inner demons

A bud I could depend on, regardless of his love for Ants.

Then the predator came.

Then the monster came.

Then the mad crab came.

They tried to kill me.

Use me.

Hunt me.

They tried to kill my mentor

My ally whom I depend on

The creator of a hero

I had to fight frogs

I had to fight a twin

I had to fight ghosts

I had to fight evil versions of myself

All dangers

Then something happened.

They took my friend

They messed with his mind

They told him that I was the coming storm

A threat that no one else could stop

A universe in danger from a hero

I thought to myself: Am I a threat?

I’m one of the most powerful beings

But is it because of who I am

Or What I have

Am I a hero because of my personality?

Or Am I Hero because of the watch?

I’ve always wanted to be a Hero

I’ve fought in many battles

Many wars, one even taking place in Time itself

But the greatest battle I feel

Has been inside myself

For six years I’ve asked myself

What makes you a Hero?

The Watch? Or You?

For the longest time, I’ve thought that it was the watch.

But it’s not the watch that makes me the hero.

I’m a hero because of the kind of person I am.

I’m a hero because of the kind of people my family is.

I’m a hero because of the kind of people my friends are.

I’ve always wanted to be a hero

But without the people I can depend upon,

I, Ben Tennyson, would never have been the hero I am today

And will be in the future.