User blog comment:PokeRob/Activity/@comment-1824169-20151212032632

Holy crap dude, this is definitely not something you need to apologize for, and believe me when I say that nothing that's happened is your fault. Crappy things happen to good people, and anyone who tries to blame the victim is just dumb.

I've been in a similar position, and though I'm no expert on anything, I do have some advice based on personal experience. The people saying things will get better certainly mean well, and from a certain angle it is somewhat correct, but in general practice, keeping something like that in mind doesn't help at all. I think it's a lot more accurate to say that things won't get better, you're going to get better.

The world is harsh and crappy. If I tried to sugarcoat it, I'd be lying. The only thing that keeps people going is their ability to adapt and survive, and if you keep on keeping on, you will eventually feel better. Could be tomorrow, could be a few years from now, but it will happen.

My main recommendation in the meantime is to seek help. Don't be afraid to ask for a therapist or a psychiatrist. If you go to one and you feel like they aren't a good fit for you, don't be afraid to switch. I had to go through a few therapists before I found one that actually felt like they were listening to me. If you aren't able to see a therapist, there are online support groups dedicated to helping people with these issues.

Again, I'm no expert, so I can only share what's helped me personally. Good luck, man.