User blog comment:Sci100/The Beginning of the End/@comment-4952704-20150811131040

I've been sitting here for over an hour waiting to give out a response. And in this post, i might hurt some feelings, but it's to help deliver my message. I don't mean any disrespect to others.

Sci, i don't think i've ever deserved you (or TJ for that matter). I've hurt, i've cussed, and probably drove you guys mad sometimes, and i don't think i was ever grateful to have you guys in the first place. I don't show it much, but there isn't a lot of people i would consider a real friend, someone i could count on. I'm not saying this because you are brilliant at storytelling or a great writer, i'm saying this as a friend.

I don't think i really ever deserved to know your personal secrets, and i probably have done some mean stuff that i don't remember, and i am truly sorry. One might argue that i don't really know who you really are, and i don't care. Call me sad, call me twisted, call me stupid, call me anything you people would like.

Sci, i love you as one of my closest friends, as the few who i could trust with my secrets, someone i could rely on, and in a heartbeat, i would take all of your problems and add it to mine, just to make you happy. I'm not a deserving person for a lot of reasons, and i'd do anything to make anyone i consider a friend happy, even sacrificing my life. Once again, there aren't many people i'd do that for, but the people who are i feel exactly the same for.

I'd add some stuff here but i'd rather save it for PM if possible. Sci, i'll respect any decision you make, and i'm sorry for anything wrong i've ever done for you. I will forever be there for you, and i can't betray you no matter how rude or how idiotic i could be, or how sad i could make you. The truth is i am like that because i truly do think you far above me, and too good of anything for a person like myself.

Sci, i hope the best for your future, and now i'll pretty much use this blog as a reminder not to do anything foolish like start fights, and i will do better to help the community, for you. And when that fateful day comes, i will remember you for as long as i live, and into death. That is all.

Good luck, and thank you so much for being there. You and my closest friends.

''For the people who took this as romantic, bugger off. I like women. You guys don't wanna know what i do when i'm alone at home, and that happens pretty often. Thank you. ''